I am just beat the fuck down.

I need to vent a little about life. I don’t usually do this but Life has slammed me and my family hard over the last few months. So let me recap a bit so everyone is caught up.

Transferred to a new job location stateside in April from Okinawa.  

Literally a day after I got checked in I was posted into a new position because they desperately wanted the person who was currently filling it out of the position. This new position does absolutely nothing to help me advance in my chosen career field, or even when I get out of the Navy.

In May I found out I didn’t get selected for promotion. To make matters worse I did a records review with my boss and she pretty much told me not to hold my breath and I should plan on retirement.  

On 2 June my dog Mojo gets very sick. We take her to the Vet who lets us know she has an enlarged heart, fluid in her lungs, and a heart murmur. If we hadn’t have brought her in she would have been dead in about two days. He fixes her up and we have to start giving her 4 different expensive medications. After about three weeks she seems to be doing better and we bring her back in to the Vet for a checkup. He advises us to seek out a Veterinary Cardiologist. We know we can’t afford that so the Vet lets us know we can continue with the medication for now.

This past Thursday Mojo dies. Just done. There one minute, gone the next. This is my wife and my kids’ first dog. Family is devastated. Add to that once we get her body to the vet there is a Cremation fee.

Friday I take my oldest to go see Ant-Man and try and cheer him up. We get out of the movie and my car won’t start. Bad starter and battery.

At this point all my savings are gone. Then my wife informs me that because we’ve taken a pay cut moving to my new job that she has been secretly covering the bills with the credit card which is now maxed the fuck out.

So no promotion, dead dog, broken car, no money, no savings…

Life can be worse, I know. But damn do I feel beat down.

 

Fuck…